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Five years after her first appearance on Tapasya Loading, New York-based Dutch vocalist, composer, producer, educator and psychologist Vivienne Aerts returns as our first-ever guest to make a second reappearance.
Her new album, Current, was created aboard a tiny wooden sailboat that Vivienne and her husband, Ted Steinebach, first bought during the pandemic. What began with a fascination for the acoustics of open water eventually became a floating studio, travelling from Leiden towards Amsterdam and back through the Dutch waterways.
Vivienne chose not to release the album on mainstream platforms, refusing to place a project built around attention, connection and care inside a system she feels is increasingly removed from those values.
 
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What happens when you stop trying to force incompatible parts of yourself into a single coherent identity, and recognize that the relationship between those parts is the identity itself instead? 
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In an era when machines generate the appearance of creativity, understanding the difference is not sentimental.
 
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The boundary between coaching and therapy has become impossibly blurred, particularly for independent artists navigating both creative ambition and psychological weight. Most distinctions you've heard collapse under scrutiny, revealing instead that what actually matters is scope, competence, purpose, and the specific geography in which support is being offered. 
Here's my revised take in 2026
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Why a Growth Mindset less about trying harder and more about loosening your grip on who you think you are.
 
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How the relentless pursuit of "likes" ended up reshaping art. 
 
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Self-loathing is a harsh word to acknowledge, but what it points to is real.
And what it shows up as in our daily decisions are the buildings blocks of the pattern that threatens to pull us away from our own creative centre. 
 
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I was a toddler when two women at a doorstep decided what I was worth.
It took me decades to hear the lesson inside that deal.
This one is about value decided, not discovered.
About us waiting for circumstances to hand down a verdict that was never theirs to give.
And about the harder half: receiving.
Who taught you what you were worth? And have you been living by their estimate ever since?
 
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Why a manager, team, assistant, audience or patron might be useless to us until we understand this first. 
 
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Uday Benegal is the founding vocalist of Indus Creed (formerly Rock Machine), the Bombay band that  that arguably forced the rest of the world to acknowledge the existence of a culture that had always existed inside post-colonial India amidst the crossfire of an East and West not always as hypothetical as portrayed.
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Indus Creed navigated a global music industry with no label, no budget, and no precedent, and still managed to land an MTV Video Music Award at a time when public internet did not exist in India, and its passport offered access to a fraction of the countries whose culture flowed freely the other way; a one-way traffic that remains a controversial dynamic in the history of the world's largest democracy.
This conversation traces the journey from Bombay bus rides hoping to catch unannounced matinee shows of ‘Woodstock’, to the New York club scene eventually leading to a long creative silence, and Uday’s much awaited solo EP that finally broke it, in his Goa home this May. 
 
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